Hey everyone, hope you had a great week! I didn’t have a chance to blog this week because I was busy surviving with 3 kids on my own. Jimmy has been gone for 8 days on a business trip and it has been exhausting. I had planned on a couple of posts this week but sleep became a little more important in order for me to maintain my sanity and keep my priorities aligned like feeding my kids. #whyaretheyalwayshungry Jimmy and I have been together almost 20 years (dating and marriage) and I still get really bummed when he’s not here. Of course I miss him helping me with the kids but I miss his presence the most. Okay, I’ll stop with the cheese.
Some people ask me how I’m able to do it all. This is proof that I don’t and I can’t. I never want to give off the impression that I’ve got everything together because that’s not reality.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
Remember how I shared about my word this year? ABIDE. Well, let’s just say God has continued to remind me how important it is to abide in him. My flesh wanders and chooses to be self-sufficient but it is always a feeble and failed attempt. There is so much freedom when we draw near to him and depend on him completely. It’s not about our own efforts because it’s about resting and dwelling in his presence. It’s about yielding ourselves to him. I knew when I chose this word, there would be challenges because God wanted to do something in my heart. He always does.
In one of my recent quiet times I journaled the following,
Core sin is that we forget God is God and that we are not.
- I forget your sovereignty so I worry.
- I forget your grace so I feel condemned.
- I forget your kindness so I get resentful.
- I forget your faithfulness so I want control.
So many things in life happen that’s beyond our control. Add a level of uncertainty into that equation and my flesh fights to gain more control. You’d think I learn by now right? I guess I’m a very slow learner! It’s like I have amnesia because of all the ways I forget the faithfulness and the goodness of God. He’s so good to keep pouring it out though. What tender mercies.
This season of uncertainty has really stretched my faith. At times I fight it with all my might by planning, predicting, and doing all I can so that I have some control in the end result. Honestly though, it’s exhausting and completely futile. So with that said, today, I’m choosing to abide in Him. I’m going to rest in his promises for today and choose to hold onto that truth. I’m going to him in prayer and asking him to lead and show me day by day what it looks like to abide in Him.
For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish.” Jeremiah 31:25
Hopefully, I’ll be back soon with some fun posts that I have planned for next week. Have a blessed weekend, friends and let’s remember to abide in Him.
If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask for whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. John 15:7